Slowly but Surely

Fuzzy heads of Siberian onion perched on thick stems are resisting gentle swaying of spring ocean breeze while my dogs happily roll in the grass. I am sitting on the ground looking over my azaleas and phlox. Tulips, daffodils, and snow whites have finished blossoming. Popping buds of roses, clematis, and peonies are just about to burst into bloom. Small green berries of black and red currants ache for the sun and gooseberries are getting bigger each day.

The last two weeks have been beyond busy trying to get myself back into a routine. My little dog just arrived home from her trip to cranberry farm. My older dog is finally back to himself after two weeks of profound grief of perceived loss of his little sister. Unable to do anything other than eat and go out to pee without her now he is rubbing against my leg and nudging me to pick up a ball and throw it to him. We are a family again.

Yesterday was my first time back in church. I am so happy to see familiar faces, my church family who has been praying for me while I was away.

I will never regret this trip I have taken. I know exactly what is wrong with me and what I need to do to get better and to stay healthy. I have been taking Cholestyramine for black mold exposure. Last week I started Purify by The Life Tree for Protomyxzoa. I feel like I get a little better every day. I was told at Sponaugle that I would need three more months of treatments at the clinic to remove all toxins, break down biofilm, and kill all the pathogens. I need to go back in six months so that they can keep prescribing medication to me.

Right now my future is one big question mark. My last paycheck is in two weeks. I don't know how I will support myself after that. Somehow I am at peace with it and have been able to take one day at a time. I need extensive therapy and supplements neither of which are covered by insurance. Somehow I am fine with the uncertainty of my circumstances. I have done nothing to cause this. I cannot do anything right now to make it better. I am facing a fate that many Lyme patients have experienced. I know that I am on the way up. How long this is going to take and if I can ever make a full recovery is to be seen.

There are symptoms that have completely disappeared. I am able to jump on my rebounder, I am less light and sound sensitive. I am less emotional. I have way less pain and fatigue. Overall there is a lot of improvement.

I traded in my FJ Cruiser for a Prius. It is a perfect car for me and I am totally in love with it! The most practical and economical car I have ever owned, I feel like I am back to myself after the loss of my husband. Somehow after his death I needed the safety of the huge frame of the FJ. Prius, cleverly designed, 50 mpg, and thought through to the smallest details, embodies my philosophy of life. The car feels like an external sign of my healed grief.

I never thought I would publicly admit to doing things like colonics but it is the single most important therapy I have ever done for my health so I am willing to share. I have a colonic twice each week and now I have added ionic foot baths. The relief of symptoms I experience after each session is amazing. Sometimes I feel like I am near healed for several hours. Both colonics and foot baths remove toxins from the body. Any progress I have experienced started after I incorporated colonics into my detox regime. I will continue, with lesser frequency, for the rest of my life.

It is my intent to keep this blog going. I may not write frequently but so many people are desperate, facing this debilitating disease, and looking for answers. I took the chance and flew to Florida without knowing anyone who actually went to Sponaugle. I found excellent care, compassionate nurses, and an understanding doctor. I want others to have a reference point and to know how I am progressing and what I am doing to keep getting better and staying well. Time for Cholestyramine, see you next time!